Monday, December 29, 2014

One Little Word 2015

Wow where did the time go.  I have ignored my blog for a while.  I am trying to find my way.  I will be hitting a mile stone January 30; 50 half a century.  Does that not sound old; full of wisdom?  So many negative connotations are associated with turning 50.  I am not sure how I feel about it or if I should feel anything at all.  What have I learned; what do I want to learn.  Have I grown; does it even matter.  Where do I want to go from here.  So many questions so very few answers. 

Truths that I do know; I am OK with being a person who does not need to travel to see the world.  I like my home, I like my routines.  I have activities that are important to me; but I think the best thing about turning 50, I like who I am becoming.  Yes becoming, because I believe we all evolve; becoming better, worse, happier, sadder.  The choices are endless. 

Our lives are a journey.  The paths we take; the emotions that we feel.  All have an impact on who we are and who we will become as we choose what path we will take in our life.  The whole ripples in a pond as we throw a stone.  It is so very true.  Choices that effect all those around us.  Interesting, scary impressive if you think about it.

I have decided to join the One little word class authored by Eli Edwards.  Several words have came to mind.  Words such as thoughtfulness, understanding, happy, enough, purpose.  Finally one stood out and it was one I did not see coming.


adjective, kinder, kindest.
of a good or benevolent nature or disposition, as a person:
a kind and loving person.
having, showing, or proceeding from benevolence:
kind words.
indulgent, considerate, or helpful; humane (often followed by to):
to be kind to animals.
mild; gentle; clement:
kind weather.
British Dialect. loving; affectionate
I love everything it about it.  I want to make sure my words, my actions are based on that one word.  So it was important to choose carefully.  I want my year to be defined by my word choice.  I am making a purposeful choice to change the way I live my life in a small but significant way. 
So before I say something to or about another I want to ask myself is this kind.  If I cannot say it is then the parable we all have been taught will go into effect; "can't say something nice don't say anything at all." 
I know I will stumble because I am not perfect, I get frustrated say and do things without thinking.  BUT, if I can start a new habit of always asking myself this simple question I just may become a better me, a happier me.  I have never believed that being nice to someone or something was about them.  It is about me.  If I am kind, thoughtful it serves my soul; I am doing it because it makes ME feel good.  The whole cause and effect thing.  I am KIND then the effect is someone else will benefit and pass it on.  That is what abandon art is about during black Friday.  I just want to practice that every day. 
I will try to document my success as well as my failures during the next year.  It should be interesting to see how this one little word define who I will become in 2015.  Maybe some of you will try the class.  Document your success and failures.  Please post I would really like to hear how YOUR word defines who you will become in 2015.

Friday, June 27, 2014

Random thoughts

I am in the process of rethinking how I live my life.  I don't know about the rest of you but sometimes I find myself taking a hard look at how randomly I live.  I do not believe how I live is a bad thing; but I do think I need to every once in awhile take a good look and reevaluate. 

I am not a planner, I am not an organized person (although I have taken "paid" for several classes to change that fact; none have worked of course), I am not a person who over thinks decisions I have made.  I have lived, I have made mistakes, I have redone mistakes just to make sure they where mistakes; or maybe because they were so damn much fun I just had to give it one more go. 

Is there things I would change; of course but over all I have been happy.  But, when you live an unplanned life sometimes you miss out on where you should of gone; or maybe you just stumble on the where a little later in your life so the getter there takes longer.  Who knows.  I have found I have a deep love of the ramble the smelling of the roses kind of thing.  I have always loved art but did not pursue it because of being so self conscious.  I am so proud of my Sister in law on how she is able to create her beautiful spoon jewelry and sell it with out the apparent worry of rejection that has plagued me.  She is an inspiration to me. 

Do I lack confidence in some areas as stated above yes I do; is that a bad thing NO!  But it is something that needs to be addressed in order for me or anyone in moving forward with their life.  The moving forward in ones life needs to be done not with just the love or interest in said thing but with confidence.  Nothing can be achieved if you don't have that.  So what am I moving forward to?  I know I want to make art  a bigger part of my life.  I know I want to start running again (the restarting of that is just plain laziness on my part "mornings suck") I want to continue working dogs in detection. 

I have found I am not so interested in buying things anymore; even things that I need.  I find it boring.  I love my home; but decorating it with new things does not interest me.  I am back to loving simpler things.  Stuff I find at thrift stores and redoing them.  The having stuff is becoming very unimportant.  I want less clutter and more substance.  To do that in my life I have to "grow up" a bit.  I will never be one to be the definision of grown up.  The smart ass T-shirts, the jeans, the sweats, the combing of my hair so it lays just right is not who I am and it will not change.  That laziness in dress is just who I am and I am embracing that part without embarrassment.  The growing up part or lack a daisy way I have gone through life is what I want to change. 

What has brought this on? I am not sure, maybe it is the addition of my new dog Loki.  His outlook his easy way of looking at life.  He is my third working dog.  He is so different that I find I am both confused and amazed while I watch him grow and learn.  My second working dog Murphy was and is a comedian.  Even in his working life he thought of the hunt as a game to be won.  I never knew what he would do if there were people around.  He would always complete the task beautifully but in the process he would have to put on a show; he had to be the center of attention.  He is like that in his every day life as well.  Is that bad absolutely not.  It is both a joy and embarrassing.  He is a great joy to me; but at times he is also exhausting in his desire to be the center of attention. 

Loki is more laid back in his every day life.  Other then the antic of a very active puppy he is very easy.  When he is working it is a task to be done and done well without the antics Murphy always had to do.  Although I miss those times of unexpectedness I am finding with getting older and more relaxed that I am enjoying Loki's way a bit more.  He is content to be close to me but not on top of me; and I mean that literally.  Murphy must lay by me so that he is touching; sometimes I am the pillow.  I don't always want to be a pillow.  Yes, for those dog trainers out there I did create this through my giving up because his stubbornness was more stubborn then I was. 

I want less stress in my life; I want to give more, I am in a place in my life that looking great is less about being skinny and more about being healthy and happy with who I am and people that is a good thing.  Having less I think will do me good help me focus on what is important right now and that is who (people my dogs) that are in my life.  Pursuing art in  joyful way instead of allowing what other think is a good thing.  I wish I had this attitude when I was younger.  But, as I stated above some of those "mistakes" were just too much fun to only do once.  So, for now my advice to all of you is go out and create something anything just  make it if joyful and fun.  Life is moving at the speed of light and if you don't live it now create it now it is gone.

Friday, May 23, 2014

Life really does just happen

Wow, it's been forever since I have posted anything.  Believe it or not I have been busy working on art and purchasing a new puppy for detection work.  First off the puppy.  I am very excited to introduce you to Loki.  His breed is new to me and I am excited to start this new journey with him.

I took a year to decide what I was going to do; am I going to retire as I retired Murphy (he was retired  march 2013)? Am I going to continue working dogs?  If I continue to work dogs what discipline do I want to pursue?  Do I want to continue with Search and Rescue or do I want to do something else?  Do I want to change breeds or stay with the Field Springer? 

These are some of the question I asked myself over the last year.  All questions needed to be answered with a yes and a plan if I was going to continue. Dogs are a huge commitment; but when you add a working dog into the mix you are committing to train train then more training; it never ever stops.  Working dogs need no MUST have a job.  They are bred to do something.  Their genetics have made them wired this way.  Each breed has their own needs and drives that must be met in order for them and their owners to exist in a positive and productive way.

I also had to take into account my personality. What breeds do I work best with?  If I am changing breeds; why am I?  Which will make the best fit to be my partner/team mate?  I looked for another Field Springer from Murphy's breeder.  After 3 breeding's not working for various reasons a breeding of 1 pup came about.  I had to put a lot of thought into whether I wanted to deal with the challenges of a single birth.  They have their own set of challenges (not necessarily bad or good) I decided I did not want to add that to the mix of training I already had a head of me.  Plus, I have 2 older dogs to consider.  They still need attention and exercised and so on.  So, I passed.  Why did I not go with another breeder; the other reason for changing breeds is shedding.  Lots and lots of shedding.  My husband is a saint when it comes to my love of training dogs.  He has allergies that are terrible.  It's not just animal its plants and so on.  So that was the other factor. 

My friend Karen and I were looking through a book of different dog breeds and we both spotted the Pudelpointer.   I remembered a conversation my husband Mike and I had after he came back from bird hunting with a friend.  He told me about this breed he had the privilege to watch work and how impressed he was.  Well two people I most trust in the world spot the same breed, that had to be a sign I was on the right track.  Plus I already knew the sporting breeds was where I would find my next partner.

The search was on.  Let me tell you these guys are hard to get.  Now that I have one I can understand why.  They are awesome; yes a pain in the ass but what high energy puppy isn't.  Crazy smart, easily bored.  Yea I am in trouble.  But that is a story for another day.  The next thing on my list was what discipline.  What organization was I going to be with if not Search and Rescue.  After being with SAR for 14 years this was a HUGE decision to make.   After talking with my friend Jennifer who was an ATF handler and fire fighter I decided on accelerate training.  The change from Search and Rescue to a Fire department is still new and has not really hit me yet. I won't know the difference until Loki is certified and we are working missions.  But, so far their help without reservation has been wonderful and very welcoming.  It is a new adventure for both Loki and I.  I am so looking forward to it.  I will keep you posted on our adventure through training and the oh so not fun of potting training. 

Thursday, October 24, 2013

The Ultimate Organizer

I am gearing up for my holiday gift giving.  As I have talked about in the previous post I am making most of my gifts this year.  This is what I just completed.  I am happy with how it turned out.  I used Graphic 45 Papers Steam punk debutante and Curiosity Shop papers.  I had a small panic attack because I ran out of the Steam punk paper and it is no where to be found.  Especially with their newest Steam punk spells.  But The curiosity Shop paper colors are so similar that I think it all came together well. 

I got this Tutorial from Paper Phenomena by Kathy Orta.  You can find it and more amazing tut's at her website 

Here are some pictures of how my book turned out.


The little date book shown a few pictures up a date book.  It is where you can write down your appointments and inspirations.  The book tucks into one of the many pockets in the book.  The closure used is an old graphic 45 piece.  I have had it for years and it worked out perfectly. 

This organizer is perfect to store recipes, inspirational ideas; really the uses is endless and it was a fun project to do.  I think the best part is the ideas I gained that I will be putting to use in other books I will be making for this upcoming Christmas. 

I hope a lot of you are making some of your gifts for Christmas, birthdays or just because you love someone.  I think that when you create something for someone every time they use it, look at it they are reminded how very much they are loved and appreciated for being in their loved ones life.  I think with everything going at warp speed these days, we all need to be reminded we are important to someone and are very much loved; even if you don't hear the words

I look forward to sharing my next project with you.  It is another Kathy tut; but I am also doing some other projects that are a little out of the ordinary.  Have a great day and create something it refreshes the soul every time.

Friday, October 11, 2013

10 year hero

This is Murphy.  He is chillin on my unmade bed.  Which is so deserves at least this one time; although it is a battle with me getting the bed made before he jumps on it.  But as usual I am rambling.  The point of this post is to do a bit of bragging on my very spoiled dog.  So please, bare with me.

Murphy retired from Search and Rescue last April.  He did a wonderful job and I was always very proud of his accomplishments.  But, I think on Tuesday of this month he really did me proud. 

Murphy has always been a very happy dog; although once he matured he did not have any interest in playing with other dogs.  He just avoided them.  He was (is) a working dog and this type of dog is more interested in the handler and the work they are to perform.  On this day he decided he had another job to do and that was to protect his groomer from a golden retriever who tried to attack her.  He backed the dog into a corner and kept him there until the owner could come and get him.  He did not bite the other dog just kept him away from Cindy. 

After the owner came to pick the dog up she confessed that the dog had bitten other groomers.  Shame on this women; notice I am not shaming the dog.  It is the responsibility of the owner to not only keep the dog safe but the people he is to interact with.  Be that as it may I just wanted to give a shout out to Murphy for being such a good dog.  He may be retired; but he still has it. 

Now to figure out how to keep him off my bed at least until it's made; that would be a step in the right direction. 

Thursday, October 10, 2013

Meaning of Christmas

I have been giving a lot of thought on how I want to celebrate the coming Christmas holiday.  It is such a wonderful time of year and I think the hurry up and buy thing needs to be rethought on my part.  

I love to buy, give gifts; but, as I have gotten older I am finding that the gifts are becoming the center of the celebration instead of Christ and the gathering of family and friends.  So I am going to try and make most of my gifts this year.  There will be some purchasing because lets face it some things are just to cool not to get for someone you love.  But, the majority will be hand crafted gifts.  I want each person to know how much I love them by taking time to make something that has them in mind.  Some will be thrilled some will be less so.  But, the point will hopefully be refocused on the true meaning of Christmas.  I love the holidays but over the years have lost some of my excitement.  I think this will bring it back for me.

This is the first gift I have made so far.  It is a mini book; I got the original idea from Laura Denson Follow the Paper Trail.  She did this tutorial for 45 Graphics.  I decided to change it up a bit.  I gave it a covered spine and I made little books that tucked into each month so I had to break the book up into 2.  Jan - June are one book; July - December are the second.  I really like how it turned out.

Here are some pictures

The spine is embossed grungepaper from Tim Holtz.
I then used distressed ink on it. 

 Here is one of the little books that I created for each month of the year. 

This is the cover of the second book July through December.  It looks similar to the pages above.

Monday, August 19, 2013

Celebratation of becoming a Great Aunt

I feel so old and yet I feel the same.  What is that about.  My nephew had his first child and her name is Addy.  I cannot believe I have a great behind my Aunt status. 

But be that as it may; my getting older problem is going to be ignored.  I have decided I am only as old as I feel and act.  Yes those of you who know me think I am perpetually stuck at 12; but you have to admit 12 was a good age.  Before the naughty teens yet grown up enough to now how to have a little fun. 

Anyway moving on.  I have created a little book for my Mom who is now a Great Grandmother.  Funny how that sounds so much better when the great is attached to someone else name.

So here is the reveal
I hope you enjoy it.  She is a beautiful little girl and we are so happy to have her in our lives.