Thursday, April 22, 2010

Rambling thoughts

I received a comment from my friend Jackie about struggling with art and how the inner critic can sometimes take hold.  It got me thinking about how my inner critic has had a strangle hold around me for some time.  I think this happens especially when you are working on new techniques and or towards a specific goal. 
I work in my moleskine whenever I get the chance.  Some of the pages are half finished or just scribbles.  I would ripped these pages out.  I have gotten so frustrated with the process of not executing the technique correctly or a mistake was made that would make me feel why do I even try.  Then the frustration would take over and I would throw a fit like a small child not getting their way.

I am not telling you  this to make myself look silly or to say "I feel your pain".  I am telling you this because I believe all of us go through the frustration of a piece not looking "just right". 

My moleskine is not something I am going to put on display.  It is not a piece of art work to be shared with the world ; saying that it is not something I hide either.  So because of that I think somewhere in the back of my mind I was thinking I only want the "good stuff" to be in it.  That is something I need to forget.  A journal (moleskine) is a thing to practice the new techniques, new ideas, goals I am trying to achieve.  It is not just for "The Good Stuff" it is for me to look back on and see the progress I have made.  How in the world am I going to know how far I have come if I keep throwing out the icky stuff. 

It is time to embrace my mistakes as well as my triumphs.  Life is like that; full of mistakes and achievements.  These are our bench marks of our life.  Remember mistakes are just that mistakes nothing more and nothing less.  They are how we learn.  Now take that thought into your art.  I love taking classes online.  I like learning these new and wonderful techniques and then tweaking them to what my style is.  I cannot do this without making mistakes, without failing.  Be courageous with your art.  Allow those mistakes to be your bench marks that you look back on and say wow; I have grown. 

Failing is part of the process, that is where we begin to learn.   Getting the nose just right, mixing that glaze with this paint and so on.  Until you practice and practice the skill will not be yours.  So I will repeat myself because I truly think it is that important.  Embrace those mistakes and practice and practice until that technique skill is yours.  The journey is so much more then just triumphs.  I believe life is as well. 

Enjoy your weekend and make something practice something.  More importantly embrace yourself; all of yourself flaws and all.

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

What I have been working on lately

I have been working on several different projects since I last posted.  The first is a banner I did for my niece's 16th birthday.  I have not worked on anything scrapbook for sometime.  It was fun to make something with all those pretty embellishment I have.  Not to mention it was a nice reminder I need to do something with all those pictures I have. 

The above page and the page below are for one of my many round robin journal groups I am in.  I was feeling a bit whimsical.  Played a bit with stencils from tulip in the above page.  Then added a portrait using colored pencils.  The page below I added some bling which is so unlike me.  But, as I said before it was fun and different.
These two portraits are just for practice.  They are in my moleskine.  The above is using graphite; the one below is using conte crayon in a single color.  I saw how Pam Carriker used them in a portrait on her blog; I just could not be left out when it comes to using a different medium.   I really enjoy them.  In a way they are teaching me to be more lose.  I am very tight when drawing and this makes it very difficult to get the results I am after.  Practice practice.  That seems to be my word of the month.  I am still not happy with my shading and understanding hues.  I will get there I know just more practice.  Ok, I think I am now hating that word.  Like most people I want it NOW!!  But I think I would not appreciate my successes if it comes to easily.
Now, I have shown my works in progress.  What have you done lately.  Art is something that should be shared and given not kept hidden because you are afraid of a critic or because YOU think it is ugly.  Art is just that ART; nothing more nothing less.  I beleive art is an expression of the soul.  Sometimes it can be ugly, sometimes it is simply the practice of a technique.  Sometimes it is soul moving.  Art can and is so many things to so many people.  Share it, believe in yourself and what you have to offer.  You are worth it, you do contribute to this world.  Art is a way to say world I was here and I matter.  For it will be here long after we are gone.